two thousand and ten.

it's a new year.
i'm happy, but also a little sad. this past year went by crazy fast and i don't know how that even happened?!
i think that i'm overly stressed about things, but i have no idea what they are. do you ever just have that feeling? i feel sort of sickly and my stomach gets twisty a lot more and i just think i need to re-center myself and focus on being calm and optimistic.
for that reason, this year i am going to learn to practice yoga. i think that learning about how to breathe "properly" and focus on my posture and muscle movements will help me to be a calmer, healthier person. and i'm pretty excited about doing it! it's going to be a good change for me, i think.

this is the first semester that i'm going into with a major already declared. i'm pretty thrilled about that. i think this semester will be good for me.
to be totally honest, i'm not ready in the least to go back to classes later this week, but i'm going to make the best of it and enjoy the madness!

on another note, i spent most of my christmas money shopping today. and it felt good. real good. there were many sales and i'm not gonna lie, i got some pretty fabulous stuff. so there.

it's that time again.

"for last year's words belong to last year's language and next year's words await another voice." - t.s. eliot.

i don't usually make new year's resolutions, mostly because i tend to not stick with things for all that long. it's not that i don't want to, i just lose interest and i'm convinced that i have the attention span of a small fly.

instead i'm making new year's suggestions. i'm going to make an honest effort to do certain things and if i mess up, that's ok, because i'll just get back on that horse and try it again! (hopefully.)
so for posterity's sake, my "2010 (holy geez, can you believe it's 2010?!) new year's suggestions":

-eat healthy. this include cutting back significantly on my snacking tendencies and cutting out the majority of sweets. my sweet tooth is going to be taking a major hit.
-get more physically fit. i'm not going to set a weight goal or dress size, because that might just lead to a disappointment if i don't make the "goal." instead, i'm aiming to get toned and stay fit...and get my money's worth out of my gym membership.
-maintain a more positive attitude. let's just say i'm a bit of a negative nelly, but i'm going to work on it.
-go on more fun trips..this includes road tripping to chicago.
-meet a lot of new people. i want to branch out!
-pick up a new hobby. as great as it is, surfing the web late at night when i can't sleep and watching old episodes of friends (which will always be one of my fave tv shows. ever.) do not count as hobbies. i need to pick up something new and find a creative outlet or something like that.

i'm sure there's a million and a half other things i could add, and maybe i will throughout the year, but i'm ready for a new year to happen. i'm ready for change and new adventures and i feel like 2010 is gonna be a good year.

december?!

hello blogworld! it's been awhile, but i've returned to you, my little blog!

i feel like a lot of things have been happening lately, but i can't point out anything in particular. it just feels like things are changing, which is probably a good thing!

it's most definitely beginning to look a lot like christmas in these here parts. our tree is very beautiful and twinkly and a fresh dusting of snow is falling as i write this. i'm not sure how i feel about said snow, but right now i'm all warm and snuggly under a blanket, so i suppose i'm ok with it. when i leave for work tomorrow that will change, i can promise that much.

work this holiday season has been much less overwhelming, which is a little refreshing. i think i've even had more polite, friendly customers than normal. usually i see all of the scrooges and ba-humbugs of the season bitterly bringing their groceries through my line, but lately people have been extra cheery. and let me tell you, i welcome the change! i think it's helping me get more into the spirit of it all.

i really wish i had more thoughts, but right now my mind feels pretty empty and my eyelids are feeling rather droopy.

swedish fish and pretty woman.

..my kind of wednesday night.

i declared my major on monday. finally. it feels like an immense weight has been lifted off my shoulders and i'm not even sure why. having a major doesn't really change much, except that i'll be (hopefully) taking more specific classes soon. i guess it's just refreshing to know i'm actually working toward something now..not just floating around the, a collegiate lost soul.

in other news, i made a delicious meal tonight and i'm really starting to love cooking. that in and of itself is strange, because i used to always hate cooking. with a passion. i'm an impatient person and so cooking would just make me hungry and then annoyed that i had to wait so long for my meal. not to mention i had a little problem with my yummy meals turning out not so yummy at all..try as i might, i just couldn't get things right! but it seems lately the cooking winds they are a'changin and i'm getting some mad skills. i mean, it's in my blood..and the help of a certain rachael ray and other lovely, tasty food network shows. oh, how i love food network! and i'm telling ya, if i could make cakes like those ace of cakes guys, how awesome would that be?!

and now it's night and i, of course, am not tired. because why should i be like all those other people that actually sleep, i mean how overrated is that?
if i could, i would. so instead i'm watching pretty woman, which i must say is one of my all time fave movies. how could it not be though? old-school julia roberts, gorgeous richard gere, and the unconvential love story of street girl turned good goal oriented woman.
i'm so motivated, i'm even attempting to clean and organize my room. yeah, attempting...we'll see how that goes!

tidbits.

i really enjoy blogging...i have no real reason for liking it. it's just nice to put all these random thoughts and opinions and ideas of mine out into the big open internet with the tiniest chance that someone will stuble unpon it and be entertained.

lately, though, i've had some trouble with bloggage inspiration. nothing too exciting is happening lately.
my days are spent mostly going to school, going to work, doing homework or procrastinating about doing homework. there's the occasional movie, nap or hang out with my friends, of course. it just seems that the winter blues has hit me early this year, i just need to get out of here! i need me some excitement!

in light of that impending winter gloom, there were some nice bright spots on this chilly thursday.
-i finally got my magazine in the mail that i've been expecting for over a week now. apparently things go out on the newstands BEFORE they're mailed to subscribers. stupid? oh, i agree. whenever i get my mag in the mail, i immediately crack it open and read it from front to back, it's so grand.
-tonight's episode of grey's anatomy was really good and i was very glad to finally see izzie back in the cast. for someone who hates hospitals and doctors and germs, i'm oddly fascinated by hospital related dramas.
-we had chinese for dinner and it was so good. i've been wanting chinese for weeks now, it's just one of those foods you only want every now and then but it sounds so great.
-i didn't feel sickly and nauseous today, which is how i spent almost all of yesterday, so i'd say that was a definite upside.

tomorrow is friday. i'm sure i'll spend most of the afternoon on homework, followed by an evening working at the food world. despite that, i plan on having a great weeked!